Tuesday, 29 December 2015

Something I missed out ...

… when I was showing you my room the other day.

On top of the bench/table the Badger made is where I normally keep folded the prayer shawl Rebecca knitted for me.

It is something wonderful. It has the colours of her home at Hopewell in it, and also something you cannot see – the intentions she knitted into it.

She knitted poems and philosophy and all kinds of wisdom in. She sent me the words she carried in her heart while she was making it. Some of them are from poets who lock down their texts with fiercely guarded copyright so I can’t share them here – but there is the wisdom of Rumi, Mary Oliver, T.S. Eliot, the Hopi Elders, the Tao, Dorothy Walters, A Course in Miracles, Emily Dickinson, and Rebecca’s own poetry – all knitted in to the fabric of my prayer mantle.

It sits there on its altar sending out wisdom as a clean and holy fragrance.

Thank you, Rebecca.

Sunday, 27 December 2015


Tonight – hooray, hooray! – the Badger finished making the wardrobe for my room. It is marvelous and delightful. It has no doors, because I think doors get in the way.

Now the room in question is six-and-a-half feet by nine feet n its dimensions; so, not large. The challenge has been to accommodate my belongings and leave room to write/sleep/read or just be, without feeling crowded or cluttered or overwhelmed.

I’ve tried various clothing permutations, and discovered that the truth is I do like a variety of garment choices. As well as radical differences in weather – from freezing cold to very hot at times, and the long stretches of wet wet wet, there are other considerations. Sometimes I have to look smart (not ‘clever’ – formal), sometimes ceremonial. Because of my floppy connective tissues, I firmly favour stretchy, soft and yielding clothes – anything tailored or resistant is too strong for me and makes me very tired, as do shoes made of any with the softest leather/fabric and the most flexible soles. And a lot of the time I am just at home being me, wearing the usual slob couture that suits the occupation.

I would like to prune my wardrobe somewhat, but am wary of dispensing with garments I later wish I’d kept and want to replace, for so now I’m keeping this lot as each item has its place and purpose.

Here is my room now. The wardrobe Badger made – ta-da!!

In case, like me, you wonder what the words are and the exact nature of things in your friends’ rooms, here’s the laundry bag on my door in close-up. I’d hate you to run away with the idea it just said ‘jealousy’ and ‘money’.

And here is the rest of it.

My floor bed under the window. My father had that tall candle-stick, but it was a table lamp with a big shade when he had it. The Badger made my bedside table. Our Hebe crocheted the blanket (you can only just see the corner), and the patchwork cushion made from old saris was hers.

The view from where I sit. My father had the little wall shelves in his shed. The Badger had the tall shelves in his shed. I wrote some of those books on the shelves. Most of the rest are for praying and preaching.

Close-ups for the nosy. Bernard, my husband who died, made the little cinnabar red shelves, and Alice and Hebe painted them. The Badger made the seat/table beside them.

The wall I lean against. Our Alice crocheted that cushion. My friend Margery painted the picture. The sconce is Scandinavian – Swedish, I think. I wrote the lettering on the wall and our Hebe painted it for me.

The sign that speaks into my life – ‘Set your house in order’ – that our Alice painted for me.