Tuesday, 5 May 2015

Fictional Jesuses

On Sunday morning, with the worship songs at chapel we sang this cheerful chorus from way back.

It takes St Paul’s words – I am crucified with Christ: nevertheless I live; yet not I, but Christ liveth in me: and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by the faith of the Son of God, who loved me, and gave himself for me. (Galatians 2:20 KJV) – the bit that says ‘I live; yet not I, but Christ liveth in me’, and expands that with the joyous assertion, ‘Jesus is alive in me!’

I apologise if I’m about to ruin a happy song with a caveat, but there’s a thing in this making me uneasy.

I can still remember the jarring jolt at my core when, as a young woman in church on a Sunday morning about three decades ago, I heard the missioner reporting to the congregation on the previous evening’s evangelistic meeting: ‘The Lord was really working for us last night.’ 

What? What?

Well, I (as you know) write fiction. Christian fiction, in fact. I write to bring goodness alive in people’s imaginations, to expound the Gospel, to make biblical texts come real, to enable readers to grasp the heart and soul of New Testament teaching.

When I’m writing (this happens to all novelists), my characters somehow take on a life of their own. I sit down knowing what I mean to write today, and before I know it they’re off on some track of their own, developing a preoccupation I didn’t even know they had. They surprise me. I can hardly keep up. I don’t feel like author and creator, far from it, I feel like a fly on the wall. They seem to have personalities quite independent of what I dreamed up. I even wonder if they do, sometimes, so real do they seem – I wonder if, in the creative process, we tap in to the universal unconscious and actually travel in time and place to other lives, meld with the lived reality of people long ago and far away. Like the thing on Star Trek (what’s it called?) where the people in the space ship could bring up before them the person beamed down to the alien planet, to have a quick chat. A kind of cosmic skype, or something.

So, I don’t know quite what happens in writing fiction, but I do know the characters seem to be real. I can’t even quite bring myself to say they’re not. And what about dreams? Where we so vividly encounter strangers and wander in places we’ve never been – but sometimes do later in life discover. What’s with that?

Our minds with their many layers – conscious, sub-conscious, unconscious; our imaginations; our astral bodies roaming the universe – Shakespeare had it about right: ‘There are more things in heaven and earth, Horatio, than are dreamt of in your philosophy.’

Because of this, I think one can easily fall prey to a misconception when speaking about the risen Jesus. There’s an inevitable tendency to muddle up the objective reality of Christ with the projections of my own imagination. When I sing ‘Jesus is alive in me’, it’s easy to slide into mistaking the imagined Jesus, Jesus the character in my unfolding internal story, for the real risen Christ.

From this, it’s a short step to the ‘God is really important in my life’ syndrome. ‘My faith is a big part of who I am.’ The little God and the big Me.

I don’t know how it would be possible to avoid this happening. Human beings make up stories, that’s how they’re made. The stories tend to have one facet or another of ‘Me’ as the central protagonist.

But, look. Jesus may be ‘alive in me’, but he’s alive not-in-me too. He is risen, he is real. He’s not a character, a projection, a personification, a Harry Potter patronus or a Jungian animus.

Jesus is objectively, actually, independently risen and alive.

One reason it’s important to get a handle on this (apart from because it’s true) is that the ‘Jesus is alive in me / God is really important in my life’ mentality leads to other displacements and projections. The subjugation of women by men, beating children, exclusivity, religion, hierarchies, fundraising, pre-eminence of buildings and accoutrements, all kinds of power trips and abuses of trust. The manipulation of community for personal ends. And – and oh, dear me, have I not come across this in the upper echelons of church authority – the projection/displacement onto others of egoistic ambitions in oneself. Because, if ‘Jesus is alive in me’, who could possibly challenge any agenda of mine?

Bottom line: do my habits, my life, my emphases, my choices, look like and accurately reflect those of Jesus in the Gospels? No? Then the Jesus that’s alive in me is a character I made up. No cause for despair – because the real actual Jesus is alive and risen and well capable of leading me out of my own deluded fantasy Christianity into something altogether more solid and workmanlike.


Anonymous said...

The teleportation machine on board the Enterprise is known as a transporter, Pen. ;)

Great post. So, so true. The little God and the big Me. Seen it often, and have been guilty of it myself.

- Philippa

Pen Wilcock said...

I knew a man in prison, once, who said when he was brought before the magistrate he was asked if he had anything to say for himself. He said he took out his packet of fags, flipped open the lid, and muttered into it: 'Beam me up, Scottie.'
Don't try this at home. He was in prison for quite a ing time.

Jenna said...

There is this idea of a "personal savior" that has a lot of folks all running round being best buds with Yahshua Messiah, the "Man Upstairs," or whomever it is they're friends with. Yahshua sits on the righthand on of the Father until such time as He returns to establish His Kingdom upon the earth. We make Him small. All that said, I do indeed get the notion that we make of Him what we will according to our knowledge of Scripture and experience in the faith. I think a lot of those who say that He is alive and working in them, so to say, rather unfortunately think He also celebrates Christmas and Easter and eats ham sandwiches.

Pen Wilcock said...

:0) I wouldn't like to presume Jesus risen is limited to a Jewish identity, though.

Jenna said...

Oh, I wouldn't either, Pen. Abraham--not a Jew. He was from Ur in Chaldea. Isaac--not a Jew. Jacob--not a Jew. The problem is that the OT has been categorized as Jewish when it was no such thing. There were all twelve tribes at the base of Sinai, as well as a mixed multitude of folks who left with Israel. Yahshua had every opportunity to say "Okay, I'm keeping the commandments so you don't have to." Instead, he equated love for the Father TO keeping the commandments (and I don't mean the levitical law). A peek through the history of the early church easily shows that "the Jews"--meaning the Pharisees and Sadducees--blamed the new sect for their problems with the Romans, while the Romans, in a move contrary to their live-and-let-live-just-pay-your-taxes policy, needed to squash rebellion and uprising in Palestine. The new church, especially once they had moved under hierarchy and away from the model left us by Yahshua, made themselves vulnerable, and by the time Constantine came along wanting to unify his empire, they were hungry fish waiting for bait at Nicea.

Pen Wilcock said...

:0) So interesting! I wish I could reach out my long skinny arm like Rubber Rabbit and carry you across to England to present a paper for our theology group. x

DaisyAnon said...

Great post thank you Pen. I need to remember this myself!

Pen Wilcock said...

:0) xx

Rapunzel said...

Just yesterday I was saying to my daughter that from my study of the various NT books, history, and experience of various denominations I think we need a slogan.
"Christianity. Putting words in Jesus' mouth for more than two thousand years."

I really should make the time to sort out what he taught from what was taught about him after the fact. That would certainly be an interesting project,yes?

Very thought provoking post Pen, it's good to be given a bit of something to work on in my mind and heart!

Pen Wilcock said...

:0) xx

Julie B. said...

I love this whole post, especially the last paragraph.

(And I always find it fascinating when writers talk about their fictional characters leading the way -- that must be exciting and reassuring to see the story unfold that way. I would not/could not ever write a story, because I'm certain my characters would sit on the bed, look out the window, think about knitting and not knit, go to the bathroom, not answer the door, eat some peanuts, watch an episode of Sherlock, and then at night go to bed.)

xoxo :)

Pen Wilcock said...

You know what? Everything you've just written here tells me you'd be an excellent novelist. That's what people like reading about.